I tried to hide from you,
but the little sparkles of glitter
in my hair betrayed me.
The stuff won’t come out,
it marks me and humbles me,
dragging me back into the past,
a reminder of the fateful day
when the glitter gun exploded.
Now I carry it with me everywhere
and find bits of it every week —
sprinkled on my pillowcase,
tucked into my sock drawer,
winking at me from my dog’s nose.
I can’t scrub it out
(lord knows I’ve tried)
and I can’t ignore it…
It’s always there,
the tiny pink elephant
that follows me everywhere.

Feeling my soul’s love for the first time,
This heart’s afraid of your touch,
Scared of being ripped open and raw,
Afraid of feeling too much.

Tying the heart into precious knots,
Turning deaf ears to its plea,
Yet wanting to show you everything,
Even though you could flay me.

Slaying the fear and ghosts of the past,
to hear the call of your soul…
Now rushing into your waiting arms —
At last I’m alive and whole.

Oh god what is it about her
that makes me completely come undone?
I want to slay all her dragons
Till she tells me I’m her only one.

Oh god what is it about her
that makes me want to whisk her away?
To sweep her up on my white horse
And lead all her innocence astray.

Oh god what is it about her
that I can’t get her out of my head?
She’s in my every fantasy,
And in every dream she’s in my bed.

Oh god what is it about her
that makes me want to shed my armor?
To give her my everything
So that my world revolves around her.

Oh god what is it about her
that haunts me whenever we’re apart?
An ache that starts deep in my soul
And then rips at the seams of my heart.

You’re safer over there
far away from me
away from the chaos that
breaks us in two.
You’re going to be ok,
as long as you stay over there,
away from the vortex that
rips us in two.
It’s better this way,
when I know you’re safe
because you’re not with me…
when I know I can’t hurt you.